It doesn't happen very often, but there are times in my life when I am at a loss for words. A good friend whom I've known since I was 16 is separating from her husband of almost 12 years. They have 3 amazing kids, a handsome dog and the white picket fence surrounding a beautiful home in a great neighbourhood.
They celebrated their 10 year anniversary with a trip to Mexico, where he made her dream of swimming with dolphins a reality. We met them for dinner and a movie in November - had a great time and everything was as it should be. The next time we checked in, he was sleeping in the basement and the facebook relationship statuses had been changed to single.
Speechless
I'm not upset about me not knowing what was happening, but I am wondering if any of my other friends and family only look happy but aren't? Do the conversations I have with people remain on the surface? Do the people in my life feel free to call me out on my crap? Do they love me enough to tell me what I need to hear even if it's incredible unpleasant? Am I doing the same for them? I know that I have sat in on conversations and not said what I should have for selfish, I-don't-want-you-to-be-mad-at-me reasons and wonder if someone had spoke up, would there be a different outcome? Maybe not, but what if. I have picked up the phone to call my dear friends at least 100 times in the last few weeks, always to almost dial and hang up. I have no words.
Speechless. For now. But not next time.
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